i hate school so much i hate myself so much i hate my life so much i love allen so much i hate that i cant do anything right i hate that im so lazy i hate that everything is happening so quickly im so frustrated i feel stuck 

i feel as though im doing nothing but everything is just so chaotic

even when i am still and quiet and not doing anything, i  feel like everything is happening

i want to move out

i want to lose weight

i want to quit eating all together

but at the same time i want my eating disorders to just fuck off

im so angry im so mad i dont know what im feeling i am sad too

allen and painting and weed and xbox are like the only things i like anymore

i feel so bad for all of my friends 

i just blow them all off

i only have missed calls in my phone and i wish that wasnt how it was

im just so scared i dont want to think about them going away for college and im just gonna stay here being a fucking loser doing nothing and rotting away

i dont even care

but at the same time i do

i care so much

i miss my dad and i just want to feel normal

thanks so much :)

I feel empty, I feel bored, I feel sad, I feel alone

literally have a million custom video orders to make today. wutamigonnado.

time to go get high so i dont start crying!~*

im just waiting to be better. i feel like im almost there. i really am so close.

haha what an interesting thing. thank you i suppose. but i am far from perfect. :)

Thank you!